Look for my signs

I was so busy living,I did not seethe poinsettia flowershad emergedoutside my window, last winterthe tree was struggling;losing a battle towhite ants and blight,the leaves dried up,the stems turned hollow, gradually turning intoa monument todefeat (still, I took a spade to itand cleaned it out,applied medication,said a prayer) all winter […]

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A Moment (From Tolstoy)

Once while reading of Nikolai‚Äôs dying in Tolstoy, I remembered my grandfather and my regret. And overcome by tears I could read no longer. My grandfather was a good man.      Gentle and loved.

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The Lucky One

Once I was walking on the path in Hudson and I found a frozen pond. I went around to take photos, unaware yet of the story of the man who had drowned there one morning while swimming.       In the distance a big black dog began to bark and run […]

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A Moment (from the night at the airport)

Once JC and I left the airport and we didn’t realise there were not metros after 11 and we had to go back to the hotel after dropping Z and we both were worried. And we walked up and down the airport trying to figure it out and I thanked […]

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The bougainvillea

Once while standing in the patio I looked up the bougainvillea and they were no longer dead and dying but suddenly blooming and beginning to climb up the steel structure around the pool the way my father had envisioned and I said to him, look it’s becoming how you wanted […]

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The Moment

It was all that and more. It was the parting in the crowd. The first glance. The spotlight on the face.The intake of breath. The dream in reality. It was the dance of life. The shape of truth. The lump in the throat. The gulp. It was all that and […]

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The Red Balloon

Today Muneeza died and it made me so angry. I dug in my drawers until I found my village file and I pulled out a letter from her. And her letter said, I love you and give my salaams to your parents and Hashim Amla. Forgive me if I did […]

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My Mamma

Mamma says you shouldn’t buy mince from Star because it’s unnaturally pink and it tastes too meaty. She says you shouldn’t buy mince from Jolly Meats because it’s too fatty. She says you shouldn’t buy meat from Desais because they take too long to cut it and it works out […]

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The World is Changing

Yesterday I had a dream and in my dream everything was so real. And it was like it was how it was. And that’s not to say how it was was good. But it was something I knew. And it felt familiar. Because everything has changed so much and everything […]

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